Saturday, September 09, 2006

if it wasn't for jigsaw puzzles, i wouldn't have this analogy...

When I’m asked why I write I answer, “because I need to”. I write obsessively-compulsively – when I need to write, I can’t think of anything else until I spew out whatever it is that has needs expulsion from my brain.

Imagine you came across a 10,000+ pieces jigsaw puzzle. But you didn’t know what the finished image was going to be, the pieces kept on changing shape, and all you knew was that if you didn’t complete it you’d go certifiably insane. However, you’re guided primarily by a force similar to intuition, and you know pieces fit because not only do they lock together but you know deep down in your gut, the two pieces are a perfect match. It just feels right. And when you’ve finished, and you’re satisfied with the completed puzzle, you feel so relaxed and at ease with the world.

That’s the closest I can get to describing what the writing process is like for me. I’m obsessed with a piece, I think about it non-stop until it’s done and only then can I get on with my life. The sentences are like jigsaw puzzle pieces and I only know they fit when they feel right. And even after I think I've got it all sorted, some of the pieces change shape on me. Writing is extremely frustrating, infuriating, and gratifying.

Oh, and I love jigsaw puzzles. But not the ones guaranteed to drive you up the wall.